둘 | Back Again

둘 | Back Again skin description

So, I'm back for the 1757853772738282th time. The reason I kept saying I was back then leaving is just, things kept coming up. For example, I learned if my grandma does not undergo weight loss surgery to help with her kidney disease, she could die within the next few years. My grandma had helped me through a lot, so this was extremely stressful for me, especially since this kind of surgery can cause terrible side effects. My grandma is strong though, and she said if suffering means she gets to live longer, she'll do it. Another thing that happened is my previous girlfriend broke up with me. Again. This time, I was, obviously, upset. But that subsided since I hate when things are awkward, and we still talk now and then, so there's no bad tension, and I think it was for the best. The biggest thing that happened was, after I thought it was done, I became depressed again. It's gotten so bad, that I've even contemplated suicide. I don't wanna get into it, but I know the chance of me actually doing that is small. But anyways, I'm back, and I have decided I will post daily. I honestly don't deserve these 300, almost 400 subscribers, so I want to make up for lost time by posting as many skins as I can. I would have done this earlier, but my internet was out for 2 days. That being said, I've already started working on 9 different skins, so expect a lot more coming. Also I'm still traumatized from 'Blood Sweat and Tears' by BTS like why do you have to break my heart and ruin my bias list like that?